I'm almost there.....but hopefully not too soon! Yes! I'm already on my fourth and last year in college. Goodness!! Ang bilis lang, diba? Natatandaan ko pa yung araw na nag-enroll ako sa AdNU with my best friend Aireen. She was determined to be a CPA, while I was not (although, gusto sana nila na mag-accountancy talaga ako). So I decided to take up Bussiness Ad, major in Legal Management. I must admit that I am not the best kind of student. Like most Ateneans, medyo may mga kalokohan din naman ako. Umiinom, cut class, di mag-aral - mga ganoong bagay. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit pa rin ako palaging Lister. Yep! Dean's Lister madalas pero dalawang beses ko rin naman naranasan na maging University Honor. Haha. Siguro mahal lang talaga ako ni God kaya binibigyan niya ako ng mga teachers na mababait kahit pasaway ako.
Anyways, graduating is not my real dilemma(oo, dilemma, hindi achievement. Weird) - the after graduation is. Up until now, I'm still undecided to whether or not pursue law. Of course, it would be better if I did, right? But there are somethings that I can't sacrifice for the sake of my family, my siblings most especially. I want to send them to a good university too when they enter college or even better when they moved on to Senior High School(let's not go into what I feel about this freaking change because I do have some issues here) I want to help my parents raise them and well, I think it would be too much for me to handle if I work and study for myself and work for them at the same time. As you have noticed, there are obviously more cons when I pursue college of law but gosh-if I do, I would become a lawyer and that would be the most fulfilling job I would ever get to do in my lifetime. And hirap kasi talaga kapag pinanganak kang medyo kapos, ang daming kailangan munang i-consider, kailangan munang isipin bago gumawa ng decision. I don't know why but lately I have gotten a bit pessimistic almost about everything in my life and even about others'. I have been a little aloof with my family and friends - trying to avoid conversations. Maybe this is just me scared to answer the "certainly going to be asked" questions about how I want my life to go about but to be honest, I haven't really had much thought about it - still thinks that after graduation I would go home to Auntie Neneth's home, eat and sleep and act as if nothing has changed, act as if I'm still their baby achiever, act as if I am not a grown up already. Nevertheless, no matter how much I try to deny that things are already changing rapidly, they still do.
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